My YouTube Vlog is back

I know I took a very long break from Vlogging on YouTube, but I’m back. Please check out my channel and subscribe.



I love my cat!

I love my cat so much! She’s adorable. She makes me laugh. She nuzzles me when I’m sad. She licks my face when she thinks I should wake up. She’s smart and curious and may think she’s a person. She sits and lays down on request. She’s amazing.

She was rescued from a bag of kittens left at a Petco.

I’m simply making a post to let you know that if you can and have the desire to rescue a pet, you should. Not only are you  enhancing their quality of life, but they’ll do the same for you.

What works for you? Advice needed.

I am in a competition to be on a reality show but I just can’t seem to market myself on this one. I have over 3000 facebook friends and yet I have had less than 100 people vote. Now, I know a handful of people have had trouble with the site, and I appreciate their effort…but that still leaves around 3000 “friends” that haven’t made the effort. I even spent over two full days in front of my computer writing individual private messages because this is really important to me.

I understand that people are busy, have good intentions yet forget, etc… and I shouldn’t take it personally…BUT I can’t help it. I feel really sad that my “friends” can’t make the effort to click a few buttons to show support. I even had people “UNfriend” me this past week…I can only assume it’s because I wrote them asking for help.  I guess it’s better that way anyway.

I wish I knew a way to get people to want to be involved and show their support. Anyone out their in cyberland have any advice? Thanks!

(I’m guessing if you are reading this, you are probably one of the people that already voted too. So I want to thank you again for your support and being there for me along this challenging career path. You are awesome!)

The Reel Deal Voting has begun

I am excited to announce that The Reel Deal voting has begun.  This is a very exciting reality show for actors, directors, writers, composers and celebrities.  I’m a finalist in the acting category.

Originally potential contestants created their own 90 second personality video and submitted via youtube.   Darlene (my dummy) makes an appearance in mine. It’s the first video on my contestant page.

Those that made it to semi-finals then had timed callbacks.  I submitted as an actor, so for my callback process I was given certain dates and times to log in and choose a monologue.  Then I had 2 hours to memorize, record and upload the performance.  I did 2 monologues during the first callback window and one more during the next. 

Now it’s up to the public to vote for their favorites via the internet.

So what are you waiting for?  Go vote:



How to vote:

click link

click vote now button

register for squerb (through Facebook seems easiest)

(If not redirected back to my voting page click link: And click vote now button again)

squerb about me at least once to get the voting buttons active

tick #1 and click submit vote button

that’s it…if you want to double check that it worked, click vote now from the original link and it should show your votes.

I lost the weight, now it should be easy to keep it off…right?


So I lost 30lbs in a weight loss program last summer.  This was not the first “program” I was on.  I have lost weight, usually around 30lbs in 6-12 weeks, several times in the past 10 or so years.  I’ve had success with Pilates, Atkins, Metaball, and coaching on TV with a famous doctor.  And each time I leave the program and think, “I can do this!” but then a few months pass and I stop exercising because of time or my bad knee acting up or whatever other excuse I can convince myself is valid when the truth is…I HATE exercising.  Then a few weeks later I will have something stressful happen or go on vacation or some other event causes me to stop eating healthy…I’ll just have a burger today, but tomorrow back to normal…until unhealthy eating IS the norm.  I have been fighting this pattern for years and years.  In March I got engaged and shortly after bought my size 6 wedding dress…this was meant to be motivation to stay a size 6 and NOT return to a size 12/14.  But I realized today I’m a small size 8 and I haven’t exercised in weeks because it’s been too hot and I had pizza for lunch and dinner 4 times in one week….WHAT HAPPENED?!?!? 

Do I not care enough about my own comfort to exercise regularly so that I can walk around Disneyland for the whole day with complaining about my knees hurting or having to ice them at bedtime?

Do I not love my fiancé enough to make sure I prepare healthy meals for us so that we can grow old together and enjoy our lives together?

Do I not care enough about my own life to extend it through eating right and exercise?

What’s wrong with me?  Nothing.  It’s not as easy for everybody to maintain healthy diet and exercise as the trainers, salespeople, doctors, supplement packages often say it is.  I need to get over my laziness and realize IT TAKES WORK to maintain.  I can’t walk into a program with an end date marked on the calendar the first day with my focus on that goal date.  I can’t say, “Once I lose that last 15lbs and reach my weight goal I’m DONE.”  That’s not the way it works.

So if you are like me and you feel like you are constantly fighting with your weight, I’m here to tell you the secret to losing the weight and keeping it off.  You have to consistently eat right and exercise.

Oh, that’s not what you wanted to hear?  Sorry.  I’ve done so many “programs” that worked and even more (not mentioned in this blog) that didn’t…but the trouble is once the program is done it’s up to you to continue living healthy.

I have a couple of tips to help with this…

1. Accountability partner – Have someone that you trust be your accountability partner.  Be honest with them about your progress each week, as well as where you fell a little short (like having that tub of ice cream during your favorite romantic comedy).

2. Exercise buddy – Have someone reliable work out with you 3 times a week or more.  This could also be our accountability partner.  If you can’t find anyone, join a local health club class and find someone in the group to be your buddy.

3. Set goals.  Once you reach your goal weight, bmi or dress size, set fun health goals to keep from gaining the weight back.  Train for a marathon, join a sport team and set personal goals within that game, anything fun and physical.  (Team in Training is a great organization to join for marathon training.) 

4. Before and after pics…take your BEFORE and AFTER pics once you reach your goal and post them somewhere you will see them daily like the bathroom mirror.  I find it very inspirational to see that, and it reminds me what I am on my way to becoming again if I don’t continue to live healthy. 

5. Educate yourself.  Know what food is healthy and how to cook it in the best way.  (I like to make my food for the week all on one day and then separate it in small packages with the correct portion size to keep me from over eating throughout the week as I get busy.  I also keep raw nuts in the car and my purse in portion size baggies for easy travel and snack.)  Learn how to exercise properly and get a full body workout for both aerobic and weights.

Remember…YOU CAN DO IT, but it’s hard work….that is TOTALLY worth it!